I don't really NEED that enchilada. . .

So, in recent months. . . ok ok. . .pretty much this whole stinkin' year, I've totally slacked off. I'd like to blame work stress, personal life stress and a whole slew of other excuses, but really it comes down to my priorities changed and I got lazy and distracted.

BUT! That's all changing. I have gotten back into the routine of daily gym excursions. I've started taking the kids in the evenings after work as well. Surprisingly, they've really missed going. Go figure!

I've also taken stock of what motivates me to go to the gym. Before, when I was doing so well, it was because I was SO focused on the end result. A lot of things happened last year that completely distracted me from that goal, and made me change the reasons I was telling myself I was going. That also led to the beginning of my slacking off. So. I have re-evaluated what went wrong and I'm back on track.

I've also made a list of things I tell myself, remind me why it is completely worth taking the time to take care of myself, why I am worth taking time for, and why I'm doing this for myself and not for anyone else.

- I don't need to be found, rescued or taken care of.
- I am strong, confident and independent.
- I am fearless and unstoppable.
- I am not breakable, nor will I be broken.
- I know who I am and what I want.
- My self confidence comes not from a bloated sense of superiority. It comes from knowing I CAN and WILL make things happen for myself.
- I am not satisfied with less then the best. The best is what I EARN.
  (And therefore deserve.)
- I see the world how I want to. I see the good.
 (I acknowledge the bad, but choose to be happy anyway.)
-I am creative, I have talents. I love to learn new things, take risks and learn from mistakes.
-I make sure I excel at what I do.
- I push the envelope, explore outside the box, take chances, plan big and reach high.
- I love color, life and things that sparkle.
- I am an old soul with energy to burn.
- I believe in fairytales. I believe in love. I believe in creating my own happily ever after.
- I am easy going, impulsive and instinctual.
- I love to plan. I love to dream. I love to do both BIG.
- I have trials and tests, but I have faith and I learn.
- I am the ends of every spectrum, every extreme seems to exist inside of me.
- I am a fighter, a survivor, a try-er and a DO-er.

AND

I don't give up.